I was at a mates house for their birthday and I was drinking. Then a familiar face turned up, it was one of my mates from college (C) Everyone had been drinking and all night C was asking me to share the made up bed with him on the floor. I said no each time as I had a boyfriend but as he continued drinking he got more and more drunk and took himself up to the bedroom. I was in the garden and went upstairs to get my phone off charge when I saw him laying in the bed. I thought nothing of it and sat on the edge to get my phone off the floor but as I sat back up I felt his hands touch my shoulders and he pulled me back putting one arm round my neck and on to my breast and the other sliding up my thigh. Each time I tried to get up, his arm got tighter round my neck. My best mates walked in the room to see what I was doing and pulled me out the room putting me in another where I started shaking and crying. I didn’t tell my boyfriend till the following weekend during an argument where he tried accusing me of cheating. I then ended the relationship with him and couldn’t stop crying as he didn’t believe me after a year and a half of loving each other. During the summer after my 18th birthday which was only 2 weeks later (I was already a capper) I turned to smoking and drinking to forget but it never worked. Then I started seeing C around when I was out. I turned hypersexual and had about 5 one night stands to try and prove to myself that I can consent while drunk. A couple of months later I got into a long distance relationship with one of my best mates that “saved” me that night and since it all happened all my friends have supported me but my mum has acted like nothing happened and my sister doesn’t believe me. I didn’t report it as I didn’t have the trust in authority and still don’t due to lack of trust at home. I am suffering badly with my mental health but none of my family know, I have started cbt which is cognitive behaviour therapy for those who don’t know and I have an appointment at the end of April to see a psychiatrist to hopefully get some more help.

Anonymous.