This one I wrote a few years back but means so much to me.
One day sleeps your best friend, closing your eyes to a world of peace, a world where you can forget everything and everyone around you, forget about your worries, your pain, your existence, for those hours asleep you don’t have to be you, no one expects anything from you, you don’t expect anything from yourself. The voices stop, the pictures are frozen in this time there’s nothing or no one who can hurt you, life stops all around and you feel nothing. That nothing is the best feeling, the nothing reminds you, you’re human just like everyone else living life without the depression, the anxiety that is eating up inside.
Other days sleep is the enemy. Fighting against you, the pain eats every inch of your body. Waking up exhausted scared for what’s to come, the nightmares are too real. Waking up remembering you’re still not the person you are wanting to be. Eyes so heavy, hard to catch your breath feeling like every gasp could be your last, chest so tight, back so stiff. Not being able to remove yourself from any nightmare the battle is consent and I’m losing. My head so loud the voices screaming so many negative worlds, thought, the memories replayed, I can’t run away from my own head, I just want it to stop it to pause just for a second that’s all I ask, that second, I wouldn’t have to fake the smile, I can laugh with happiness I can be the me who I once was.
I hope this is the kind of things you’re looking for.