Hannah’s Story Hannahs Journey
Hannahs Journey. Unknowingly for many years I had carried within me compacted layers of unremembered trauma, until the day in 2017 when I finally began to shed my layers and become stripped of my pretence, competence, strength and sanity.
It was not the right time for me, but looking back, never would have seemed the right time to me.
However, the choice was not mine.
I had built such a solid structure that appeared perfect to the outside world. No one would have known, I had buried everything so deep.
I had survived my whole life until this point by dissociating and would have continued to do so, if my mind had not been determined to want to heal.
Something deep inside of me, a part I didn’t even know, wanted to survive, that part didn’t want me to hide in the shadow anymore.
It was time to meet that part of me
And so my journey began…
It was time to face the memories I had buried within me and learn how to integrate and successfully operate as an adult, while finding ways to accept and soothe the traumas of my childhood.
5.5 years on I am still learning how to build bridges between my dissociated and alienated parts and make them strong enough to walk across to find the safety that was stolen from me.
I have to learn how to recognise the powerlessness that trauma has caused me and somehow remember that I am not powerless anymore.
